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I was thinking long and hard about life after my Dad.
I'm still lost and I know I'll always be just that.
These postings will basically be my bitch-fest towards my new life changes: restarting college, my new diet and exercise routine, my permanent sexual drought {who knows}....
And towards my Mother --- what influences do I have?
Having a revelation, because my parents provided everything that involves spending of cash; I never had to work much for anything {I'm not counting my 10-year retail work}.
I guess now will be the start of change.


I'll begin with my diet. When I was with Dad, HE was top priority when it came to a balanced meal due to his decrease in health. I had to make sure he ate so sometimes because of wack hours in the shelter we were staying, I went without breakfast but made it up with lunch. Mostly, I lost weight because I focused on someone other than myself.
I have now begun a "Fat Girl Stratagem" which means that I have to work on my body VERY slowly in regards to exercise. Walking was what I was doing after his death in VA then the move back to MD plus it was just as easy to pick back up since I can't legally drive at the moment.
In addition, I now do 3 lb weights to thin my "wings" under my arms once my early walk with Mom's dog. I pick up the groceries from Giant near Wheaton Mall on foot wearing full exercise garb complete with a jacket meant for joggers during bad weather days. I get enough stares, all judgmental. For food intake, that so-called portion control is a lot harder than it sounds.

We'll see what happens.